ADAM & EVE (‘Apples’ part 2/3)

Again Adam traces her beautiful body with his hands, first rubbing her feet and then moving along the perfect shape of her claves, bends to kiss the back or her knee, still marvelling at how exquisitely soft it is. He draws back to admire the shape of her thighs and buttocks, letting his hands naturally caress her smooth flesh in a movement so natural and organic, it never changes. She is lying in the soft grass, eyes closed, her long lashes playfully dancing as she daydreams, a slight smile on her lips. He lets himself yearn for those lips instead of kissing them, imagines her moist acceptance of his own lips on hers…later. His hands on her lower back, the slight arch and valleys formed from those feminine hips, back and forth he plays, applying a little pressure to help relax her body, gently massaging her muscles and skin. Again he bends for a kiss, the small of her back, the scent of her womanhood rising to his nostrils, he moves his face closer to the source to better take in the aroma. She looks over her shoulder at him, then returns to her dream. The whiteness of her skin so alive in the sunlight, the sight protrusion of bone under such sweet flesh. Her hair falling to one side showing her beautifully fragile neck. He uses his fingers in her hair, just above the base of her hairline, squeezing the nape of her neck, releasing tension there and now scrunching her hair in his fists. Her ear turns red, hot with blood, he sucks on her lobes a little and runs his hand down her arms. She relaxes them and moves them along with his motions, he can hear her breathe out and he wishes he could take those breathes into him, how sweet and warm they must be! Coming out of this beautiful creature laying there so serene and pure. Event though he does this every day its always the same feelings, or, it gets better and better. He looks at her, admires her, the sun in her hair, the occasional shadows the leaves make moving across her back. She senses him looking, opens her eyes and looks at him, raises herself up on her elbows and kisses his lips, just once, the turns to lie on her back.

“I love you” he says.

“I know” she says.

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Adam wants to cook her favourite fish for lunch. He crouches by the stream and waits for them to come. One of them will offer themselves up soon, a young salmon. He waits by the shallows, the transparent water passing over the smooth river stones, the music in the trickling makes  a mesmerising tinkle that is perpetually surprising, a crescendo of soft tingling light moving quick and soft, makes the nerves in his fingers twitch and his mind wander from the task, lost in the glistening fireworks of sunlight reflected from the moving surface. The salmon come, hovering and slipping by, their shark grey liquid skin twisting and sparkling in the sun. The warm breeze come to remind him his is not part of the marine world. He hears himself breathe deep, in and out with rich oxygen…a different animal. There it is, swimming in perfect opposite to the current, seeming to look over its shoulder at Adam, patiently waiting. He moves his hand above the fish’s body, wait there (uts not ready yet), a few moments, then it is true that the time is right so he simply plunges his open hand over the small body and grasps the slippery living thing, lifting it out of the water with no struggle. Of course the shock of being in an opposing environment effects the little fish at first, but Adam takes it into his lap and lets it relax there. After a moment of nothing it flicks again, its confused mouth struggling, but he is there, tickling it under the chin, looking it in the eye and holding it close to his body. Soon there is peace, he is sitting there alone again, sun warming his shoulders, a soft silver fish laying still on his crossed legs. That is all, he gets up and takes it away.

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As Adam moves the fish around in the hot coals, Eve approaches, something is different in her face a new way of walking, something Adam hasn’t seen before. He watches her come, looking into his yes as if nothing else exists, feeling that she wants something, not that she has simply caught the scent of the cooking salmon, something else. She has a ring of vines wrapped around her waist, some larger leaves draped over her shoulders, as if she has taken nature itself and covered herself in it. How strange Adam thinks, unable to take his eyes off hers and feeling the heat from the coals on his thighs and chest. He turns back to the fish, using a forked branch to flip it again, the darkened flesh getting close to eating. He crushes some herbs in his palm and mixes them in with the juice of a lemon, looks back to Eve as she now stands before the fore, looking at the fish and the coals with pained expression, her brow creased.

“Adam” she says in a slow voice, “there’s something wrong”

“What is it?” he asks, moving back from the fire and placing the salmon onto some leaves.

“There’s something e forgot about”

“Forgot? What?”

“That there is…something else. We didn’t know”

“Know what?”

“I don’t want to tell you”

He takes small piece of salmon from the body, blows off the ash and tastes it. It’s good, sweet and salty.

“Have some salmon” he offers.

“Sure” she says.

They sit together, eat the fish, dipping chunks of the flesh into the marinade, he notices her simply eating, a blank look, not smiling like she normally would.
“Something wrong with the fish?”

“No…Adam…you need to eat this”

“An apple?”

“Yes”

“Okay”

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IT’S NOT REALLY HEALTHY (‘Apples’ Part 1/3)

He was doing good after beating the cancer, three years after his wife died, and you know he had his things to do, and even though they’re the same each day sometimes its just perfect like that. 3:30pm walk three blocks down to the RSL club and have three schooners with his oldest friends, so old that all the things over the years they don’t even talk about, so much there that there’s nothing to say about that so its news and new things they discuss, or just sit for about ten minutes not saying anything, but everyday it is. After being alive seventy years and being alone what else is there to do but wait for death and then hate waiting for death so you stay alive, try your hardest to stay alive, do the things your doctor tells you. An apple a day. It started as an apple a day, from his own tree in the backyard, walked out in the 7am sun, walked out into his yard that he owns and he’d lived in for, what, fifty years? Raised four children (one which dies before he even could, cancer again, of course, something to think about walking the twenty or so paces towards the tree). The tree of life he thought, pick a fresh apple from a branch, rub it (for no reason) against his shirt, habit, take a bite and it was juicy and life giving and nurturing and real. Turn around in some direction, look at what he had, the grass where his children played and then grandchildren too, at Christmas or when he and his wife had to babysit them while his own children tried to remember how to live away from children, you know, let his children and their partners go away for a few days. All this in an apple a day. Then it was two apples, he’d be out again at 10am, having washed up the one plate, knife and fork and pan he used to fry up some type of meat/potato/broccoli thing. He wasn’t the cook, but he knew he had to eat. Pour some “father’s favourite” sauce on top, or just pepper and salt (but the doctor said ‘no salt’ but what the hell else can you do?) or some mustard. Not like it used to be, this new mustard was bland and too peppery, not what it was…

Three apples…four apples, too may apples but they feel so good to eat, like God’s saving gift. Soon the tree was bare and sad and he could only take the last one off and eat it, this time looking at the branches, the last tiny apple in his big hard hands, three bites and it’s gone, just the core left which he crunched between his teeth, ashes to ashes he thought, and: shall I be buried?

The local supermarket is a behemoth. Children and stupid parents yelling and moving too fast and flashing crap and too many words and everyone ignoring each other and the glare of light on polished white hard floors. Being alone now is hard, and dangerous, he feels his limbs, feel his slowness, sees his different clothes and the loud running teenagers who don’t know he’s there (even more fragile now), the hard floor waiting to break his bones should he fall but he is upright and strong and still here! He puts vegetables in his cart, puts sugar in his cart (do I need sugar?), puts tea in his cart, and then a 2 kilogram bag of apples. Not the same he knows, feels that there is something wrong with this, but, they are good, remember? He want to live and these help you live. He passes through the checkout without too many words, its early and he wants to be home. Leaving is easier than coming, there is nothing left to do.

Her picture’s are everywhere, mixed in with the children and grandchildren. Why are there no pictures of her when she was young? Where are those pictures? He wants to take all the frames and replace them with hi young love, but, tearing out these new lives, his family, seems monstrous. Sitting in his lounge, turn on the TV? No, don’t want to waste hours on that thing, gets an apple out of the bag and takes the first bite into a thing that came from god knows where. It is different, the juice is dry, the thing is light and metallic, only the whisper of life in this thing. Another one, even worse, this is light and floury and hollow. The next one reminds him of something, school? Ten years, twenty years ago, something? Somewhere? There is only the sound of the bite and the chew, the softness as it breaks down and the swallow. He stops, eaten too many cores (his father taught him to eat the core because “why the hell would you waste that god damned food?!”). It will be another year before there’s fruit on his tree. Eight more months at least.

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